I’m sorry this post is late up today but it’s been a busy busy day for me. So where do I begin? As ever where I left you last night…..
Schindlers List was 1/2 an hour from finishing and the internet dropped out, we tried loads of different things but nothing worked so we couldn’t finish the film and as Steve had gone to bed already we couldn’t ask him to fix it, anger number 1. Then when everyone has given up with the film and gone to bed I start to work on the little surprise I have been planning for you all. I had been working on the main computer for over an hour and so my stomach is now in two with pain, I start to gag and gag, the sort where your eyes water, oh no, I don’t want to be sick 🙁 I manage not to be sick and get to bed but only after numerous trips to the loo. Now this anger number 2 as I know it’s my fault for eating too much Sunday dinner of Roast Pork with all the trimmings but having spent two weeks not being able to taste food I just can’t help myself but I then have to pay the price. I eventually get into bed at just after 2 pm.
I wake at 5.50 am, no pain, excellent! and after 1/2 a biscuit, coffee and a fag plus animals fed I go to check the work I had done just 4 hours previously. The speakers won’t work, FFS they worked 4 hours ago, anger number 3! Steve wakes as he is on the early shift and I rant about how can something work 4 hours ago and then without anything being changed it won’t now work. Steve instantly fixes it as the computer had decided to turn the volume down itself. Steve goes to work and my day is all planned anyway. Take Rebecca to the hairdressers, take Richard to get his car MOT’d, Mom has to leave today and return to the Midlands. Pick Rebecca up and then meet Emma to do work. Anger number 4 as all this was going to plan but there are road closures all the way to the hairdressers that weren’t there this morning when I dropped Rebecca off at the hairdressers and I have to go back into Wycombe along the London road to go back up to Flackwell Health. I arrive but Rebecca isn’t ready and I have to wait another 20 mins which isn’t really anger number 5 as I haven’t seen Caroline who does my hair for months so that was nice but it is anger number 5 as I am now late meeting Emma and as mom has gone home Emma is sat on our drive waiting for me and so I’m driving as fast as I can to get home for her.
I remember that cancer joke for you to add some laughter to this anger post ‘My Oncologist now does my hair’ LOL
Anger number 6 is from my mom as she hates leaving me, she worries too much and is scared of the time she is missing out of with me, she doesn’t want to go back to her normal life. I’m sad for her as I know I’d be the same if it was any of my kids but she can’t move in and be with us 24/7 as we all have to have space.
Back home and work all done with Emma which took hours and although I thought I’d saved a document it didn’t save and all the work had to be done again, anger number 6. It was lovely seeing Emma and spending time with her but I had now been awake for 9 hours and working in a sitting position as with the previous night sent my stomach into spasms and I can’t hide the pain from her, I’m forced to take painkillers. Next door have a builder round and drilling can be heard for well over an hour. When Emma had to go and we go to her car which is parked on our drive it’s covered in brown dust, anger number 7, oh no poor Bella (name of Emma’s car) now Emma has to get her cleaned as brown shit coloured dust doesn’t look good on a mini convertible.
I am exhausted and can’t wait to sleep and relax my stomach. I have a missed call from Leanne, so I drop her a quick text to say sorry but I have to sleep and I do the same for Steve. Anger number 8 as I can’t walk Molly now, I’m knackered and I haven’t even started my post for the day 🙁 I sleep for 1 1/2 hours. I wake just as Steve returns from work. A quick exchange of the events of the day and I have to do my post, see how I love you all 🙂
Steve has done some research into turmeric being able to reduce or stop bowel cancer cells spreading and has returned home with the tablet form of the spice. He also says that I have to eat shiitake mushrooms too. I’ll give anything a try hey and so we will.
Both of these things are backed up by the Cancer Research UK and serious trials are being done to explore the beneficial effects, so it’s no quack cure.
I have listed all my angers as all of us, me and my loved ones are angry but who should they or I be angry with? So what happens to us all is that the lightest thing makes us all over react. It gives us a ‘thing’ to be angry with. Feelings of hopelessness is not good and the thoughts of what we all stand to lose and the possible difficult road ahead is always with us. It makes us all angry but to each other we are fine until something small sparks off the anger and frustrations of life.
Finally I copied this off someones timeline the other day as I like you was probably shocked to find out that Robin Williams suffered with depression. How can someone who brought so much laughter to the world be so sad? The truth is that like anger, depression can be a disability in itself and because people hide it away, like anger it festers beneath the surface of the exterior that we show others.
Anyway as it’s a ‘Warts and All’ blog so it’s all about anger and frustration today, sorry but we have to have the difficult days to know and appreciate the good ones hey.
As mom has returned and Steve is back as Editor, any mistakes in this post – get angry with him haha xx